Living in the Now
Loosing it.
It’s like panic attacks back to back.
Diversions to cope.
Shopping just to feel some normal.
Cuz the normal hurts.
Losing it again. Crying.
Craving some TLC. Over eating instead.
Doing what it takes, till it just doesn’t.
Panic attacks. Crying fits.
Doing the dishes. Making some tee.
Watching some telly.
Distractions.
Distraction from feeling so lost.
From what is too much.
To cope. Dipping into the news.
Avoiding panic attacks.
Doing the laundry.
Stuck.
Above all. Human connection.
Panick attacks. Sobbing. Apathy.
And all over again.
Living in the now.
Time out. Time out. Time out. Right before the light.
Light.
Light.
Light.
Light.
Light.
Light.
Light!
